The Old Tree Stump In My Back Yard

The Old Tree Stump In My Back Yard

By Andrea Tadpole-Broussard 

10/8/24

I have noticed a change in the way I view things. I started out on this path to change my life at an even deeper level a year or two ago, after my father died. Before then, I never even really looked at trees. I mean I love nature but I did not understand that everything talks to everything. I have always loved birds. Birds have always spoke to me in one way or another. But, I never realized how everything in this universe is connected. 

Over the last couple of years my spiritual eyes have become stronger and stronger through different types of work that I have been doing. When I look at this tree stump I do not just see an old piece of wood laying on the grass. What I see is something beautiful. It served as a home for so many animals in my yard. Many of them I never really saw. I just knew they were there. 

My husband was going to cut it down when we first moved in and I adamantly refused to let him do that. I did not realize back then why, but I understand now. When this old tree stump fell it was very sad and very sacred to me. I mean it was inevitable because it was obvious the tree stump was dead or dying depending on how you look at it for a long time. But, over the last couple of years I saw the life in it and around it. It served a purpose even though it appeared to be dead. 

I guess it kind of reminds me of my dad. He was a very tall and strong man for most of his life. He would be the protector that raced in to save the day. He truly was my Prince Charming and my hero. Over the last couple of years of his life I watched him slowly deteriorate, to the point that he finally fell for good. 

Yet, I see his spirit all around me and I feel him everywhere. Kind of like the way this tree is still there in spirit and if left alone will give what is left of its mortal body back to the Earth where it came from. How beautiful is that?! So, that is why I am going to let this old tree stump in my backyard rest in peace where it is.

I think this world has become cold and harsh for the majority, especially here in the United States. We do not honor our elders. We certainly do not honor them after they transition to the other side. Most people are just glad they are gone. I suppose that is why I try so hard to honor my father. Because in honoring him, I am reminding everyone that he is still here and still alive. He is just in another realm and someday the veil between us will be broken and we will be together again.

I would have never thought that an old tree stump would teach me such a beautiful and sacred lesson about love and spirit. I am very grateful for the signs that God sends me all the time. I am also grateful that today my eyes are open and I can see them and let them in.

Indigo Child

Indigo Child

By Andrea Tadpole-Broussard 

6/30/24

I hope there's enough room here to give you my answer. I watched this last night. I sent this to my accountability Buddies and I want to send it to you.

Oh my God!!! I listened to that thing called Indigo Child on LOYT. Well let me just say mind blown! My first thought is my grandson Michael is one and that is why I enjoy him at a level that I have rarely enjoyed someone before. That's also why I'm fiercely protective of his innocence. 

My next thought is I am one. That very thought brings tears to my eyes. The woman speaking said something about if you're an adult and you realize you were one at what point in your life was it shut down. Immediately I know it was when my uncle molested me the first time. I've been thru years of therapy over that and made peace with it within myself. I will never be okay with him and that's okay. Who would be? There has been this anger in the depths of the deepest parts of who I am over this and now I understand why. He stole so much from me.

When I was born it was at a time when it was not okay to get pregnant before you were married. My parents had to get married whether they wanted to or not. Either that or they were going to force my mom into an unwed mothers home to get rid of me and adopt me out and make this ugly thing go away. My dad would not have any of that and he married my mom.

I learned years ago through some experiences that I had that I was born into this world under a root of rejection. Something that I hated and and fought for a long time. I believe that's part of why I became and alcoholic.

When I was a little girl I had a very very vivid imagination. At least that's the way my parents explained it. I had what they told me were Imaginary friends. But in my heart I knew they weren't imaginary even though everybody else could not see them. I could draw before I could walk or talk. I remember trying to tell my parents about all these beautiful things that I saw and they would just tell me I was such an imaginative little girl. Inside my heart I secretly knew they were real but I didn't tell anybody because I thought they would think I'm crazy.

When I was 10 years old one evening I came home from school it was a Wednesday night and I asked my mom to take me to church. We never went to church on Wednesdays only Sundays. I just knew we had to go. That night I was what they called baptized in the Holy Spirit with the gift of speaking in tongues. A lot of people think that's weird I just know that was my first spiritual experience in my life and it is very real to me. I knew that I had the gift of discernment and healing. This night happened right before my uncle molested me the first time. I've always wondered in my heart what spirit out there was so scared of me that they would let that happen. Why did my light need to be shut down so bad? But I never told anybody.

At one point in my late 20s early 30s I was very active in a church that believed in the Holy Spirit and I started praying for people when I felt led to when they needed healing. I don't know if anybody got healed. I never followed up with people. I just know that people would come to me out of nowhere and ask me to pray for them, to lay hands on them. I remember one time it happened out of nowhere in a grocery store and there I was praying for this lady. I didn't seek these people out they found me.

Then, one day a very close friend of mine saw me at an AA convention. Right there in the middle of a crowd he begged me to pray for him that he could quit smoking. At first I told him no but he begged me. So I prayed right there in the middle of the crowd that God would free him from his addiction to nicotine. I prayed that he would drive him to his knees if he had to. One month later he found that he had lung cancer and he died three months later. I never prayed for anyone again. It broke me in 2 because I felt like maybe it was something I did and I didn't mean to. I haven't let my light shine since, until now.

Like that lady said on the recording if you are one, if you have the gifts that an indigo child has you can't ignore them forever. They push you and they pull you until you let them live.

Now I don't want you guys thinking that I'm anybody special cuz I'm not. I'm just a 61 year old lady trying to find my way through life I am not perfect and nowhere anything close to what Jesus was.

I guess when my dad died I realized that I do not want to waste this life any longer. I don't exactly know what it is I'm supposed to do but I'm not going to hide anymore.

July 5th 1986 was my rebirth day. I don't mean that I got saved that day. I had been saved and baptized so many times before then that I had my ticket to heaven. What I mean is that's the day I got sober and that's the day my life was reborn. I will have 38 years in a few days. It may look like I have waste a lot of time. But I know in my heart that every step I have taken has gotten me to where I am now. It is not by chance that the two of you are on this path with me. God doesn't do coincidences. So, I don't know where the realization of who I have always been is going to lead me. What I do know is I'm very grateful that the two of you are with me. I love you both very much.

One last thought, out of nowhere yesterday a lady told me that I needed to realize all the angels that are around me and focus on them. Now I understand why.

I will add this for you Michael and Elizabeth, I am so grateful the two of you are in my life! This recording about indigo children blew my mind and answers a lot of questions for me. Thank you so much for letting the universe guide you. 💜

Bella's Stole of Honor

Dear Bella,

I have been thinking a lot about what this  graduation stole signifies to me. When you asked me to make it I got excited again, like when Courtney asked me to do a painting for her. Creating things is the energy that fuels my soul, especially when I do it for those I love so deeply. 

I always have a story for anything I create . It is written on my heart as I am creating. When I look back on my life, I realize that when I was in art school every painting, drawing, photo and print I did had a meaning and a story. Sadly, I had an art teacher who did not like the fact that I had a story with them. All he did was try to snuff out my light. It did not work did it?! Do not let anyone blow yours out either! So, here is the story of your stole of honor.

Bella's Stole of Honor

By Andrea Tadpole-Broussard

6/11/24

My granddaughter Bella asked me to create a graduation stole for her high school graduation on June 18th in just a few days. She wanted the stole to have a Native American theme because we are Cherokee and she wanted to celebrate that. Of course, this excited me to no end and I rushed off to Hobby Lobby to find the perfect material and other items to use as embellishments. I had never made a stole before so I found a pattern to go by and changed it up a little. I always let colors and images I see help me form a plan. Most of all, I pray for guidance from the Holy Spirit to help me convey the message God wants the receiver of my gift to hear or see. It took me a couple of days to actually start on the stole. During that time, I had a dream and I got a picture inside my spirit of how Bella's stole needed to look and what it needed to say to her heart. Everything on it has a meaning from every stitch of thread to every image.

Bella’s stole is two-sided. On the front is all the bling. The fabric is in a Native American pattern. It calls to mind our loved ones who have gone on before us. There is a cross because I know Bella loves Jesus with all her heart. There is also a paw print and a picture of a dog that looks a lot like her beloved Betty. Betty went to be with the Lord a few days ago and I know that Bella's heart is aching over it. Betty carried her and her family through many devastating times and she celebrated the good things with them too. Betty was just as much a part of our family as anyone else and she deserves a place of honor on the front to celebrate with Bella. She serves as a reminder that we never lose those who have went to the arms of God before us. They are always ever present we just have to slow down to see them.

As I was creating Bella's stole of honor, my mind went back to when I was her age. I remember feeling like I could have anything in the world if I just worked real hard. I had all these plans and dreams. I just knew they would all come true. Yet, as a young adult I learned very quickly that life happens and sometimes our best laid plans do not come true. I believe that is because life does not happen in a straight line. It is full of all kinds of twists, turns and detours much like the threads and stitches in this stole. The best we can do is set goals, take steps and always remain flexible and willing to change when the path before us shifts. Most of all trust God.

I started asking God what else Bella needed for her stole. Most stoles only have the front side. The back side, the one that touches the body and touches the heart is blank. I got a picture in my mind of Bella as a young woman. Maybe she might be going through a hard day at work, or the kids are not acting right or she is weathering one of those storms life randomly throws at us all. She needed something to wrap herself in to remind her of where she came from and all those who love her dearly. 

I got this picture of quotes and images of those who love her deeply on the back of her stole. Of course, there is a picture of her and her mother, her sisters, myself, her grandparents, her uncle, cousins and others. There are words of wisdom and pride flowing through each image. These are there to remind Bella on those rough days that life throws us that she will make it through and she is not alone. Her story is never over.

The wolf symbolizes the Wolf Clan that we are part of in the Cherokee tribe. The crow is a nod to my beloved father who absolutely adored Bella. There is a picture of him holding her when she was born. I know that he is with her in every step she takes and he is the most badass guardian angel she could ever want. 

There is a reminder of the importance of family, even the ones in your family that you do not always get along with. Someday, Bella will realize that you never know who will end up in your corner when you need help. Quite often, it is the very one that you dislike the most. So, it is important to stay open but wise.

At the top and Center of all this jumble of people we call our family is Jesus, depicted in a little circle that says "Love Like Jesus". This is something that I try to do everyday and quite often fail at. All the more reason to keep Jesus the center of who we are.

The field of blue that her family and well wishes are displayed on symbolizes loyalty and fidelity. It also reminds me of my father, because it is the same color that his eyes were. It personally reminds me to look people in the eye. You see, I spent the last few minutes with my father before he died and I never realized what a beautiful blue his eyes were until that last moment. I remember thinking why had I not looked in his eyes more. So, it is a reminder for Bella to look in people's eyes, and really look into their souls.

Last but not least, there are two tiny little elephants. That is a reminder for Bella that me, her GeGe, will always be around and with her, whether in this life or on the other side.

So, my dear beautiful Bella, on days when life's storms are hammering you pull your stole of honor out and wrap yourself in it. Remember the deep love, pride and excitement we all feel for you. Never forget, you can do whatever you want to do if you will put your mind to it, pray and follow God.

I will always love you more,

GeGe 💜💜💜